My Refuge

Taking Refuge is something new to me, the ceremony is simply but what we have to go through is un describe able. It started 4 days before refuge ceremony, where I cannot put myself together to decide on weather to take the refuge or not. Since my Guru, Tsem Tulku Rinpoche announced that he will be giving refuge on Tsongkhapa Day, I cant hardly walk, sleep and eat. Basically I really wanted the Refuge, but I was thinking "Do I really understand what is Refuge?" And by the way, Tsem Tulku Rinpoche seldom gives Refuge, and when he gives tons of people will be on the Que up list!

2 day before the ceremony, at last I manage to pull myself together and say "I'll do it". But the challenge here is, I'm running out of TIME! Lucky I manage to get hold of May from Kechara House and BEGGED her PLEASE TAKE ME IN !!!, fortunate enough for me I manage to squeeze through and get my name on the Refuge List.

1 day before the Refuge... The HARDEST day of my life, the day seems like months and by the time it is 2 noon, I have smoked more than 1 packet of ciggies cause I have not get any information on weather have Rinpoche Approved my Refuge Request... Please! I was begging in my heart as everyone else got a call to confirmed their refuge.

Finally! my Turn! My heart is pounding and I'm jumping up and down! Feel like striking a lottery man! Later on that same day, I went to get some refuge presents for Rinpoche, well basically I took me hours just to select what I want to get for Rinpoche.

It ended up with the basics (body, speech and mind) which includes a Tsa Tsa, a Dharma book and a Stuppa. On top of that, I was so excited, I got him a Candle, a box of Incense and a Mala (http://www.tibetan-rituals.blogspot.com/) if you wanna know more.

I went for the Official Ceremony the next day being refreshed and the ceremony lasted until 5a.m the next day, everyone is dead tired but we just love it!

Wanted to know what happen in between? Wait for the next post